I am really sad and in despair. I have this sudden urge to rewind my life just before I moved to this city, life was freaking perfect back then. And now, I have one less thing to believe in as if there was enough, ever.
I am not sure what or whom to blame for this turn of events. Maybe , myself!
Or maybe, this is not a game of blames, maybe i am supposed to accept that shit happens in life, a lot...gotta take as it comes. I am not sure. And I dont think I will ever understand, now is the phase for all those ifs and if only s.Which never helps!
I have always tried to be someone who does not judge people, particularly bacause I am not in a position to dictate how people should act in their own lives, convenience does matter for everyone, a lot! But now I am not too sure whether this indifference of mine is a virtue to be prized and possessed, or is it just a convenient way to avoid making choices.
About him, I have always thought fondly, and I still do.He is the only person I consider in my memory untainted, as the person I Love!And i had always blamed her for the loss.Now , when I am in the receiving end I realise She made a choice, a choice to stand up for what she feels to be right. My shaky morals and the desire for convenience do not permit me to do the same.
So I do not have the right to judge any person, when I have myself smiled at the earlier stories and not even bothered to tell them it was wrong to do it!And when also, in future, I will end up doing the same. I choose convenience over everything, and indiffference is the right filter for it.
So yeah, shit happened and i am left to deal with it. I will manage, as I always have.
Its just it was not worth it.
I am not sure what or whom to blame for this turn of events. Maybe , myself!
Or maybe, this is not a game of blames, maybe i am supposed to accept that shit happens in life, a lot...gotta take as it comes. I am not sure. And I dont think I will ever understand, now is the phase for all those ifs and if only s.Which never helps!
I have always tried to be someone who does not judge people, particularly bacause I am not in a position to dictate how people should act in their own lives, convenience does matter for everyone, a lot! But now I am not too sure whether this indifference of mine is a virtue to be prized and possessed, or is it just a convenient way to avoid making choices.
About him, I have always thought fondly, and I still do.He is the only person I consider in my memory untainted, as the person I Love!And i had always blamed her for the loss.Now , when I am in the receiving end I realise She made a choice, a choice to stand up for what she feels to be right. My shaky morals and the desire for convenience do not permit me to do the same.
So I do not have the right to judge any person, when I have myself smiled at the earlier stories and not even bothered to tell them it was wrong to do it!And when also, in future, I will end up doing the same. I choose convenience over everything, and indiffference is the right filter for it.
So yeah, shit happened and i am left to deal with it. I will manage, as I always have.
Its just it was not worth it.
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