I once had a family!


U will say so what?Everybody does.
The difference is this was a family i chose- a sister i loved dearly, a father i cared for, gay uncles who meant much to me, a cousin who was my partner in crime and a grandpa i respected more than anything.


Yeah, maybe i messed it up. I would very much like to apply my new found principle of osho which supports doing what the heart wants and attribute all failed relations as mere casualties of my free will and it's doings.


And yeah that is what i do.Usually.


Except at times when i wallow in loathing and anger , i blame myself. and certain others to some extent.


But probably the use of past tense in characterizing those relations is not utterly justified, remnants remain. Like vestigeal organs. Not dead but useless burdens to oneself.


I can live without them, but i choose not to.


I just put on my bulletproof vest and close the windows.
I'll see you soon in a telescope lens.